Anonymous asked: oh just a curious follower who knows a rough outline of the story from things you've said over time :]

haha meh its reasons like these why i love my followers. me and derek talk time to time i cant say theres progression, well which i guess there is since we went from not talking at all. it sucks cause i was on such a roll with not calling him and shit and now that he reached out to me i find myself bored and wanting to just talk to him or when im drunk, not a good thing. i force myself to call my sister or someone else instead. i just hate still feeling that we talk only on his time. you know what i mean? i feel as though if i were to call him he wouldnt pick up nor call back or answer me. idk though i havent tried. i guess we’ll see how things go. i can say we prob wont talk for a while, or maybe until his birthday when i call. idk.. boys…. they just fuck with ya.

ha sorry i kinda just vented to you